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Tuesday, February 28, 2012

masih sama

As salam,


Dahulu

ketika waktu belajar,
aku selalu buat kerja last minute, kalau buat awal pun mesti nak siap tu last minute jugak, lab report, assignment, sampai final project pun, tak tidur sampai subuh, sebab fikir terlalu mendalam..hahaha
Tak. Tipu. Bila bukak laptop, untuk buat assignment, kalau ade internet, kejap-kejap nak bukak lawan web artis Jepang kesayangan, dan laman  muka buku.
Kalau tak de internet, sanggup buka, sebelah window word, sebelah window lagi, windows media player atau vlc, untuk melihat konsert artis Jepang kesayangan. Maka, bagaimana words mahu bertambah, akibat mata tertumpu di video.

Sebenarnya, mahu nonton drama mahupun konsert, tapi sedapkan hati agar tak rasa lagha, bukalah microsoft word. :P


 Tah, bende ape yang aku buat nih dulu-dulu.

aku sentiasa berazam untuk jadi dispilin,
bangun pagi setiap hari tepat pada waktu alarm bunyi, tanpa perlu tekan butang snooze dan tangguh ke bunyi alarm seterusnya.
Tapi, selalu tewas dan seterusnya menarik selimut biru kesayangan aku.

cuma aku selalu buat pada awal waktu ialah tidur, selalu sangat tidur terbongkang awal, pastu bangun tak awal.

Azam aku tak pernah pudar hari demi hari, tahun demi tahun,

hingga aku hampir berumur 24 tahun,
Azam aku masih kekal, menjadi displin, tidak kelam kabut, dan menghantar tugasan tepat pada waktunya.

Adakah sudah terlaksana?

Bila Sales mintak sample, masih belum siap, kelam kabut hari-hari, buat color matching, lepas tu merengek, apesal aku tak terror macam senior chemist ,  buat 2 test jek terus dapat match color, aku sampai 17 kali test, 26 pun ade, apesal payah nak dapat ...

jawapannya masih sama,



Ketika dahulu,
semenjak dari kecik, baju uniform aku ialah seluar dengan t-shirt long sleeves, ni untuk keluar rumah, masuk sekolah menengah pakai baju kurung sebab dah wajib, seterusnya lahkan pakai jelah baju kurung kat u pun, nampak sopan santun , budi pekerti tinggi lah kan, tapi banyak jugak pakai tshirt yelah kan, sibuk nak berlari kat lab, kenkonon...


22 tahun.
Tudung memang dari kecil sampai ke tua, kelepet-kelepet.

pergi mengajar tadika, haruslah pakai baju kurung, giler Islamic school , tak menjaga penampilan sopan, memang kene kutuklah kan...




23 tahun.


Sekarang,

kerja kilang,
baju rasmi,

masih t-shirt dan jeans, tak perlu bergaya, sia-sia sahaja.
Pakai baju lusuh-lusuh , tak de sape heran.
memang langsung takde gaya eksekutif, yang aku angan-angankan ketika zaman remaja.


balik kejer terus jek jalan pakai baju same, sambil bergambar dengan beg shopping member.
ni jelah gambar terbaru  kat JPO arituh




hampir 24 tahun,



keserabutan

Bila dah meningkat dewasa, status facebook, kawan-kawan juga berubah dari tension dengan assignment, gambar convo, kemudian alam kerja, dan ade yang mula upload gambar tunang, dan seterusnya kahwin... mungkin tak lama lagi , kawan -kawan akan mula upload gambar anak-anak, macam sepupu saya Ziha dan Surya

Sila teka, yang mana satu, meja kitewww


 A


 B


 C



D




huhu, kalau jawab A, salah, sebab A adalah meja sepupu saya , Wani Sofwan sorang pensyarah di UiTM Kuching. Bertuahnyelah kan aku, ade bilik sendiri. Buku penuh pulak tuh.

Status:
Kalau da byk sgt keje, mcm ni la jadinya!

Siapa jawab B, juga salah, Ia adalah meja rakan sekolah saya Pravin, bekerja sebagai Mechanical Engineer di Sony Malaysia. Malu kite PC kite tak canggih, hehe.

 Status: 

Still in the office calculating how much can i save for the company..LOL 
 
Siapa , jawab C, juga salah, ia adalah milik kawan sekolah saya, Dali yang bekerja di Petronas, huhu, tapi meja dia dah kemas dah

Status :
Workstation yg bersepah kaw2 tak hengattt! Matillaaaaaa @_@
 
D?
HuHu, jawapannya adalah salah.. ni pemilik kawan saya Fatma Karimah Paiman, (dia suka google nama die sendiri :P). seorang Estimator.
Status;
Sarapan
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 ni lah meja kitewww, officemate cakap ni tak cukup bersepah lagi lah..aku amik jelah kan, kang kalau cukup bersepah, sure, tak sempat amik gambar.
 

 

Sunday, February 19, 2012

kindergarten teacher vs assistant chemist

As salam,

creativity







 



Teacher need to be creative to attract students to learn and focus, and enhance them to be creative .


 Yeah not so creative, we do not have crayon and big white paper as umbrella....:P



Stress







 Serabut

Who says being a preschool teacher doesn't have stress? 
Not believe it, try to be a kindergarten teacher for a month. Out of 10  maybe only 2 can make it.
 It is not a easy task you all, not everybody can stand  it.
Crying, poop , pee, puke, fighting, screaming, running. You name it.
One of experience teacher, had confessed that he cannot be inside the classroom with the kids more than 2 hours.


Hard

Yeah,  susah , I went to kindergarten by walking, yeah just 5 minutes walking.We don't have a car, so we move by public transport, by bus, monorail, LRT, commuter, You, know , public transport especially bus and commuter in Malaysia is not  like Singapore or any advance country. Sometimes, when I see people with baby ride a bus, I look at myself, will I be like them?

I manage to walk, 20 minutes walking to buy groceries. Yeah, I used to it.










Most of you  might never have a feeling like this, when you pass the McDonald, Secret recipe , big apple, you just look from outside, because you don't have enough money, if I want all that, I must wait for salary, and you know the pay as preschool teacher is not much at all.

When you look at the car that pass in front of you, while you are waiting for the bus, it is just a sad feeling like, when is the time that  I will own a car?

Yeah, all this reminds me who I am in this world. we are slave, all the gift are from Allah.


Cure 


In Islam , it always said that ,the only 3 things that we bring when we die, are pray from our soleh and solehah children, beneficial knowledge and alms.

So, by being a Kindergarten teacher in Islamic preschool, it is one of ibadah for me, together with them I learned hafazan, Iqra', reading, taking ablution, dua, praying, and the Islamic living.

When, I see their smile, it always make me happy,
Even thou, sometimes they annoyed me..; (  my bad.













Of course, they are happy, when I am living them.


Assistant chemist

whoever in science field or at least had learn science would know that it is all about logic , theory, efficiency, and plan.

As an assistant chemist in powder coating manufacturing,  the stress is about the same, every jobs have it own stress even the jobs that you like, it just the way you handle it. Stress to catch up, to be multitasking, you need to calculate, to think, to run a machine, spraying, it is not the girlish job. You have to walk fast, to think fast, gangsta one. Sometimes, I cannot sleep well, thinking about work.

Yeah, now , I go to workplace by car even it is old kancil, I can eat fast food , whenever I feel like I want, even still calculating...huhu

Lotttttt to learnnnnnn and mastered.

And no time for cam whoring.
 ;(

Sunday, February 12, 2012

longgggggggggggg clueless blur,

As salam

Hi friends!

May be, some of you know that I am now working  as assistant chemist at Colour Top Sdn Bhd (Powder Coating company)  in Ulu Tiram, Johor Bharu.

If you are following my blog  sine 2010,  you might know that I was a kindergarten teacher before this.

Life is unpredictable,I never expect  to went through  all this when I was 12 years old,
how I was a graduate in applied chemistry, turn to a teacher, being jobless,doing a Herbalife (MLM business) then be an assistant chemist?

Go with the flow?

 I never had a clue what I want to be before this, actually not that I don't know, but I have so many thing that in my list that I want.. not an actual list, but day  dreaming ..huhu



when I was 12 years and below, when peoples asking me what is your ambition, I just said that I want to be an architect, huh, just because I like drawing  at my young age, and I don't know how I get the word , may be because my family and relative said that to me,

may be like this,
` Oh suke lukis, jadi arkitek lah ni'
funny isn't it?.In fact,I am not doing good in drawing and arts, and I am disaster in using ruler.

same like me when, my nephew get a good grade in language subjects, Malay Language, Arabic, and he also good in English,(better than me :p)

What I said was,
' Oh, pakar bahasa nih!'


Then, when secondary school , I went to Science school, my mom asked me to go, she said that,
' Cubalah dulu' .I didn't got a clue what Sekolah berasrama Penuh is, yeah I heard that word before when my tuition teacher said that to us,

and you know what,

I am totally blur what school is this, the paint of the building was streched and look old, and I didn't found anything special about this school, the peoples are like #$%@&, the life is like @#$%&, the rule is like @#$%&*


Pure Science stream, so , I thought that the only options that we have was, being a doctor or being an engineer, huhu, how stupid I was at that time,

I really ddn't know what I want to be, and when teacher asked me what is my ambition, mine is always keep changing,
Luxury Car designer, architect, Dentist


I have a problem in UPU application, because seriously I didnt sure what I should put at list, So, I guess, I randomly put, a nurse, if I am not mistaken, on my top list, bahahaha

A nurse, how I can be a nurse?!
 lazy and bad temper.


but, I expect that I just want to my foundation first at matriculation college,

and once again I don't know what to choose, either life science or physical science,

and my best friend,Nisa said to me,  you should choose life sience, it have wide field.
So, then, I had been accepted, even thou,  
I had better grade in Physics than Biology for SPM.
I even got an interview for mass communication course in UiTM, but I didn't go. I thougt may be I born as  a dentist, Bahahaha, wake up baby, you got a day dream.
Lazy to brush teeth, floss, fail in oral care.


Then, my exam result, had wake me up!

huhu, poor me ,
I got clueless again, what shoul I applied for my degree with my very low grade,
Any university want to accept me?
what course?


Thanks to Universiti Teknologi Mara (UiTM) you are the best university in the world.
hew hew hew...


BSc.(Hons.) Applied Chemistry. It was fun for 2 years and a half.
In my final year, I got a problem with my final project, then I thought that I should not take this course, this is not my thing, I should do a business or may be related in education line. Early childhood education maybe.


 Not look good in labcoat



Not look good with kids

good?! with a good example of successful Herbalife businesswoman, Amalina Allen Peter,23,
earn more than RM30000 every month.

(huhu, same shawl for years...)

After finished  my degree, I am so relieved that I passed . Then, when applying a job at jobstreet, I like to apply a position related in marketing,not in Laboratory.

I went to Shah Alam after 5 months of being jobless.
Apply a job as kindergarten teacher and being stuck there for 10 months.


Quit, as I think I can't stand  be a slave to the other person forever.

Then, I went to Kelantan, to learn how to do a business in Kelantan about 1 month and half,
Go back home, and fail to disipline myself to be my own boss.
Again, laziness is my biggest enemy.




Then, what make me really trying hard to find a job is when my relatives , my family brainwashing me and asked for my resume and forwarding it to various company, and I stressed when family meeting on hari raya ,
I have keep been  asked what I am doing right now?!
















The Clulessssssssssssssssssss will be continue....

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Kau bukan siapa-siapa

As salam,

Siapa kau?
Bila kau rasa kau sendiri , kau mengadu domba,
Mencari keluarga,
Bila kau rasa kawan-kawan bersama kau, kau lupa
Kau hanyut dengan seronoknya dunia.

Bila kau rasa susah, kau menangis dan bertanya,
kenapa aku, kenapa bukan dia?

Bila kau mahukan sesuatu,
Kau berkata, jika aku dapat itu akan ku berikan segalanya ,

Namun,
bila kau sudah dapat kau ingkar akan janjimu,
Kau hidup dengan nikmat yang sebenarnya ujian untukmu.

Bila , nikmat itu menjadi beban,
Kau mula berfikir, apakah dosaku?
Adakah ini ujian atau balasan?
Dan, baru kau mula kembali kepadaNya.

Kau memang mudah lupa,
Sampai bila kau mahu begini,
Sentiasa tercari-cari,
Padahal , ada jawapan yang pasti.

Kau siapa?

Kau adalah hamba,
Dan ingatlah pada Maha Pencipta,
kerana tiada siapa yang bersamamu selama-lamanya,
Hanya Dia.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosaku, hambaMu yang hina,dan rahmatilah seluruh umat Islam di dunia ini.



Bacaan  -Untuk Kita Pendosa-Langit Ilahi